We have been lovers for more than thirty years. I have enjoyed our frequent romps together but lately, however, I am not feeling satisfied when we do our thing. The two glasses of nice red last night confirmed this for me. I pushed through to finish that half bottle from the night before but I was not enjoying it one bit.
I think the love is gone. I also feel that you are jealous of my other lover, Yoga. You are interfering in that very special relationship. I know you have many lovers, but I tolerated it as we could still have fun most of the time. Why then do you not reciprocate? It would only be fair!
Consequently, our relationship has become a lot like doing handstands against the wall, it feels fake. I would rather try handstands in the middle of the room, even though I may fall more easily. It’s much more exciting and I feel better for not having the bad lover (the wall) who makes my body bend in a bad way [thanks Susanna for that “bad lover” comparison, its has stayed with me for ever and kept me in the middle of the room].
So I left the Tribe Sober workshop wanting to moderate our relationship, but on reflection I think we need to part ways for good.
Last week we celebrated our fifth anniversary. You have been patient and loving and never held back your gentle embrace, even when I had spent the night with Alcohol.
You have changed my life, you exhilarate me and make me feel alive. Each little surprise you deliver at unexpected moments … touching my toes took 4 years, crow, side crow, hand stand, heck even eka pada koundinyasana and many more just arrive by accident and leave me smiling for the rest of the week.
I think the divorce with Alcohol will bring us closer and I can’t wait to be playful and giggle like a child as you and I spend time on the mat together each day.